I Am That I Am
On Creating the Life We Would Like to
November 8, 2002
All is well and in perfect order. Nothing can ever be outside of perfect order,
even if it seems as if things are falling apart around you. The reason for this is that
everything works to the benefit of mankind. You are all in the process of returning to your
Creator, and as this comes about, even events that are traumatic are shifting the energy.
To understand this further, look at the traumatic events that you have had in your life and
how they have caused you to decide that it no longer suits you to be frustrated or alone or
sad or depressed or angry, or any of the other emotions that no longer suit you. These are
empowering you to make a change.
On the other hand, you can choose from an empowered positon to make a change in your life and
to walk forward and do what you always wanted to do in the first place. You don't have to
wait for an event to hit you over the head to know that you no longer want to do it. So
what you choose to do is up to you.
If you wish to walk forward as an empowered individual
you must first understand where you are now and what no longer suits you and then work to
create your goal and to walk step by step.
But as Dave Lovell said two days ago, you also have the capacity to make giant leaps by
just also living the life that you would like to live. You have the capacity to do whatever
it is that you would like to do.
If you are working for the highest good for all people, you have everything already
there. Now, some of you have questioned where your financial capacity is and where it comes
from. If in Absolute Time everything is happening all together, and although Vera prefers
not to use the idea stacks of plates or spindles— she prefers another idea — what happens is
that you have many, many stacks of plates and each stack has a certain set of experiences
on it. Say for example, the stack where you are is all pancakes — well you are only one step
away from having all crepes. It is one step higher, one belief structure higher. The next
one is all crepes with lingonberries. So, you see you can go from hotcakes on the griddle to
crepes with lingonberries or Crepe Suzettes. It is only one belief structure apart from
where you are now to the next step that you would like to take.
Have you ever played the game where you take one word and you change one letter and
you create another word, and you change the next letter and it is another word, and eventually
you have created a whole different word by just making one step at a time? Those of you who
have the capacity to imagine really well what it is that you would like to create,
you can leap all the way from hotcakes to the final word, which could be... What is your favorite
food? Ice cream sundaes? by understanding how to make that without taking
it one step at a time.
In Absolute Time everything exists all at the same time. Nothing exists outside of
Absolute Time. It is the number of belief structures away that will get you to that point
where you would like to be. So, if your perspective is here on pancakes and you would like
to be on ice cream sundaes at the far end, it takes either looking at one belief structure
at a time, or understanding the whole picutre about what it is and knowing that it is already
there. It is just your belief structures that are preventing you from doing it.
Now, tonight I would like to look at belief strucutres a little bit, because this is the part
that is hanging people up from accepting what it is that you would like to accept. Suzeranda
has been trying to encourage people to understand the final picture. People consider it to be
pressuring them for her to say what the final picture is and what it takes to get to that
final picture. The 100% involves being the person that you would like to be and that you
have always dreamed you could be and felt that you couldn't be. For whatever reason you felt
that you couldn't be that person. Whether the church told you that it wasn't proper for
young ladies to do something, but you wanted to do it anyway. Or cultural changes or
belief structures of poverty related to your religion, or a mother that was trying to get
you to grow up in a certain way, and children rebelled because they wanted to be themselves,
whatever it was it is all Illusion. It is all a misunderstanding. It is for you to understand
that illusion is just what you could consider to be a misunderstanding between people.
So, tonight we will wipe out all the misunderstandings between people and we are
going to communicate what we feel in our hearts, and we are going to begin to work together
as a team understanding that miscommunication is what has caused the problem in the first
place between people, and then we are going to walk forward and we are going to assume a
new position much farther down the road and much closer to where we would like to be.
No one has the right to tell another person what to do and what to create. Each one of
you has the right to create and to choose your final position, and how far you go depends
solely on what you choose. No one is ever going to tell you or make you stop from being
that person, because you have a right to accept that belief structure or not to accept it.
Somebody can stand and yell in your ear all day long that you are an ugly toad but whether
or not you believe it is totally up to you and no one else. So, to blame somebody for
preventing you from being that person is a cop out. It is a misunderstanding and it is not
valid. You are solely responsible for what you create and if you do not create it you are
the only one who is responsible for it and no one else. You have had every opportunity and
then some to create the life that you would like to live, and it is time that you start doing
I would like to say one more thing before I have Suzeranda sit down.
If you would like to be the person that you would like to be you must start to live that
life. To be that person. As I said, no one else is responsible for creating that
life, only you. It is time to realize that if you look around you at the Absolute Time
that exists around you, and all the plates of pancakes and Crepes Suzettes and Crepe Suzettes
with lingonberries, and all the way down the road to hot fudge sundaes, or whatever it is that
you want to create, it is going to take you to observe the people around you because they
are reflecting back who you are.
As I said, if you blaming people for not
allowing you to create what it is that you would like to create, you are unempowering
yourself. To assume responsibility is where your empowerment lies. This frees you from what
is around you.
At the same time, the conflicts that you are facing with the people
around you are the tools that you will use to understand what your belief structure
is. The conflict that you see in the world around you — any conflict — is the tool that allows
you to understand what your belief structure is. Because, when you are in an empowered position
down the road there is no conflict, but that shows you how much there is between you and that
place there. Do not look at conflict as if it were bad, because it is the tool and you
are empowering yourself by assume responsibility for looking at it.
If you only have one person
that you are arguing with at the time, then you are only one step away from your place... Unless
there is only one path to where you are going, and each time you take one step you will
to find a new person, and Vera this is where you are right now. You are taking it one step
at a time, and resolving issues, and Suzeranda has been doing this all along. Each time
she went from place to place she faced an issue. When she walked forward to the next place,
she resolved that issue behind her. That is why she has gone from place to place. Each one of
these issues was a belief structure. Each one of these steps was a belief
When she made her ascension she walked through and made it all the way to the
seventh dimension, but the belief structures popped her back into the third dimension.
Now, as you walk through and assume a new position with each belief structure, you are actually
taking one step closer to a continuum. The 100% becomes the 0% of the next dimension.
You are actually not on a path that leads you from here to there, you are on a path that
leads you from here to there and you are going to keep on going, belief structure by belief
structure, until you make it all the way back to your Creator Parents at the very beginning
of the Universe, where you are united with the Son within the Son within the Son within
the Son within the Son. So be it and so it is.
Now the final matter...
As you look at the relationships around you, it is not necessary to resolve the issue
in the physical. It is also possible — that is taking the one step — it is also possible to
resolve the issue on the spiritual level, and understand that everything is in perfect order.
Nothing can ever be out of perfect order. Just as I stated at the beginning of my discourse.
That is all.